BACON AND LEGS

  1. This morning was a morning where everything felt heavy.  I accidently did this WOD at my home gym with 10 front squats and 10 burpees. I was 3 reps shy of 5 rounds.
  2. I finished my thrid week of hatch.  I might change it slightly— I might base the percentages off of 210 instead of 220.  Everything felt so heavy.
  3. Right now I’m eating averaging around 1950 calories per day, with 1650 on rest days.  I think I’m going to change it to around 2150 on workout days and 1850 on rest day.  This might help with the squatting? I’m going to wait a week before I change Hatch and see if eating more helps.
  4. I’m awful and bought my boyfriend and I matching shirts.  I’m robin, obvs.
  5. Today is going by super fast.  I don’t want to go home because I have so much tidying to do before my sister visits for Easter :(

ALSO! I finalized my plans for Edinburgh/ London (booked my hotel and train tickets) and I can’t believe I leave in 34 days!


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themischaproject:

the song that made me fall in love with frank ocean


ayabug said:
When you get this you have to say 5 nice things about yourself publicly, and then send to 10 of your favourite followers ❤

I love doing these!

  1. I’m a really good friend.  I like to go out of my way for people and I think I’m very loyal.
  2. I’m a pretty good cook.  One of my goals last year was to start cooking more, and I think I accomplished it. I don’t make anything *too* complicated, but I make a mean steak and potatoes. 
  3. I have pretty hair. I like that it does what I want most of the time and I like the colors in it. 
  4. I’m strong.  I like that I can lift a lot of weight. It makes me feel ~powerful~
  5. I like that I’m friendly.  I think I try to be nice to strangers and acquaintances. 

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"Before I met him, I would dance in the shower. When he was in my life, I would think about showering with him. After he left, I would sit on the ground in the shower and cry. When I got over him, I showered so quickly there was no time for dancing, fantasies or tears. Someone can invade the smallest parts of your life, you won’t even realize it until you dance in the shower again and wonder why you ever stopped."  - (via thunderandlaughter)


update! 

I feel like everyone is going to get sick of me writing about how happy I am, but it’s true. I just feel really great lately.

About two weeks ago, I decided to stop eating paleo.  I’m really happy with my decision and I feel less stressed about my eating choices.  I feel like everyone needs to try and find something that works for them.  I felt a lot of pressure from the other trainers at my gym to eat “perfectly paleo” because it made them all feel ~amazing~.  

I’ve been eating a lot of rice, oatmeal and (shock horror!) cinnamon raisin bread.  I feel like this is the best thing for me right now.  I don’t feel guilty eating certain types of food, and I really think that the added carbs into my diet sit well with me. 

My performance is also up— yesterday morning I squatted 190# for 6.  My olympic lifts have also been on point lately.  For the first time in a long, long time I’m actually excited to go to the gym. 

Yesterday I was asked if I would be interested in signing up for this course that’s run my the company I work for. It’s about a year long and I’d take classes online / watch lectures and then they’d fly me to go to these seminars once a month. It sounds super cool and I think it’d be a cool thing to add to my resume + it’s free….soooo. yes, please.


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Pretty picture from my way home from the gym this morning.
Training:
Work up to a heavy 3RM for Snatch:
snatched up to 105.  Felt good, tried 110#, got one and lost the second one.  I need to focus on being slow and loading my hamstrings.
My mind is not present at 5:30am
Work up to a heavy 3RM Snatch Balance:
I started with 95#, felt good then moved up to 115.  
I felt off, and I ended up ditching it forward.  Unfortunately, the rack was in the way and the bar landing directly on the back of my neck. Seriously the scariest thing that’s happened to my lifting wise.  I was trapped between the bar and the rack. I’m okay now. A little sore, but that’s it.
Back Squats:
1x8@145, 1x8@155, 1x6@170, 1x6@185
These felt good, and I think they would have been quicker had I not just had an accident.
I started Hatch again, because I’m following outlaw’s programming and I also want a 250# squat.
 Front Squats:
1x5@120, 1x5@135, 1x5@145, 1x5@155
 I have to do these later tonight because I ran out of time
Metcon (also later tonight):

10 minute AMRAP
20 boxjumps10 KBS, 70#10 airsquats (sub for pistols bc broken knee)

I’ve started doing metcons with my dad in the mornings (it’s a great way to motivate me to work out before work).  My dad use to do some powerlifting, so I dont really have to teach him very much.  We’ve worked on KBS, box jumps, push press, and he can do one (!!!) double under. 
 I’m so much happier now that I have my own gym.  I feel like lifting and going to the gym help my anxiety a lot.  It also helps my overall confidence. When I can train regularly my mood improves dramatically. 
I’m trying to convince my dad to add a “track day” to our workouts.  We currently workout Wednesday, Friday and Sunday together. I want to add in Yasso 800s or another form of sprint work this summer at the track by my work.  He doesn’t seem too into it, and I might just do it Saturday or Monday mornings by myself. 

Pretty picture from my way home from the gym this morning.

Training:

Work up to a heavy 3RM for Snatch:

Work up to a heavy 3RM Snatch Balance:

Back Squats:

 Front Squats:

Metcon (also later tonight):

10 minute AMRAP

20 boxjumps
10 KBS, 70#
10 airsquats (sub for pistols bc broken knee)

I’ve started doing metcons with my dad in the mornings (it’s a great way to motivate me to work out before work).  My dad use to do some powerlifting, so I dont really have to teach him very much.  We’ve worked on KBS, box jumps, push press, and he can do one (!!!) double under. 

 I’m so much happier now that I have my own gym.  I feel like lifting and going to the gym help my anxiety a lot.  It also helps my overall confidence. When I can train regularly my mood improves dramatically. 

I’m trying to convince my dad to add a “track day” to our workouts.  We currently workout Wednesday, Friday and Sunday together. I want to add in Yasso 800s or another form of sprint work this summer at the track by my work.  He doesn’t seem too into it, and I might just do it Saturday or Monday mornings by myself. 


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"There’s no need for heartbreak warfare. It’s called ‘I love you’ — ‘I love you too’. ‘I need more love’ — ‘You got more love’, and you can get through life like that. Shouldn’t you just on days where you want more love be like ‘I had a bad dream that you were sleeping around, it’s really irrational, but just love me extra today’. Why can’t we just have this thing where you just say ‘Just love me extra today’. If I was with somebody and they said ‘Love me extra today’, I would love them extra forever."  - John Mayer, Atlanta, 2010. (via caulfielded)


The post where I just word vomit 

I’ve been having the best week and it’s been really nice being in a good mood.  

I feel like this is really good for my mental state.

I spend a lot of time dwelling about how I should dedicate more to my training and how I don’t look X.  I feel really happy about how strong I’ve been lately, AND I took progress pictures today and compared them with ones from a year ago and I think I look SO much better.

Last night I couldn’t sleep, and I just sat thinking for a while about how I don’t like to express hurt/ pain.  I normally act really cold and nonchalant and pretend ~I don’t care~.  I think that this is because I’ve been told my entire life that I’m too sensitive and that I now I don’t want to be “that girl”. The one who expresses emotions and gets told that she’s “hysterical” or “crazy” or “overreacting”.

I feel like right now I hold onto a lot of sadness/anger/resentment that doesn’t really benefit me.  I’m never going to be able to move past things if I don’t come up for a solution. How can I come up with a solution if I don’t let the person know that they ever hurt me in the first place?

I guess right now I can harp on things that still bother me from 8-12 months ago or I can just move past it.  I’m choosing to move past it and start new. 


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"You can’t spend the rest of your life being afraid of people rejecting you, and you have to start by not rejecting yourself, you don’t deserve it. From now on, people can either accept you for who you are or they can fuck off."  - Kester (via lilgivenchyprincess)


Update:
Went to workout at 5:30am this morning.  Sometimes it’s really hard to rally, and this morning was no exception. Woke up at 5:15 and had to be out the door in 5 minutes.
I’m so, so happy with my snatch.  I most likely could have done 105#.  I haven’t snatched heavy in a while, so I was worried that I’d lost a lot of strength. Not the case, these were super fast and clean.
I could not rally for the workout.  Everything felt heavy, and I had to split all my jerks.  I was resting a lot and was super hungry, but I did 2(ish) rounds more than the last time I did this workout (plus I did it at 105# this time, while last time I did it at 95).
Celebratory ice coffee for waking up early.
Selfies… bc reasons
Goals update:
I started doing behind the neck presses to work on my overhead strength.  
I prepared meals for 3 days ( Wednesday’s my first day off from working out + coaching so I’ll have the night to do more)
I’ve started giving myself a weekly budget on food (took the money out in cash) and coffee (huge expense for me) so hopefully that will stop random spending.
I cleaned most of my apartment last night and organized everything so things should continue for the week.

Update:

Goals update:

  1. I started doing behind the neck presses to work on my overhead strength.  
  2. I prepared meals for 3 days ( Wednesday’s my first day off from working out + coaching so I’ll have the night to do more)
  3. I’ve started giving myself a weekly budget on food (took the money out in cash) and coffee (huge expense for me) so hopefully that will stop random spending.
  4. I cleaned most of my apartment last night and organized everything so things should continue for the week.

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